Speaking of Make-up

Im almost 30 years old and just recently learned how to do make-up.  My girlfriend Candy and I would go out clubbing and she would say "are you going to put on any makeup?" and Id be like fuck it.  It already would take me 2 hours to get ready without it.  Then One day out of no where BAM I started watching YouTube videos for hours and hours turned into days.  The first full makeup I bought was MAC I bought $$$ and tried my hand I went from this

The extent was a shimmery bronzer, black eyeliner, mascara, lip gloss.....
All my pics were the same or with less

my very first "smokey eye"

and this was my second

This was actually an arabian / cat eye look that I love and tend to recreate using different colors

MAC Make-Up

Lately I been pissed off because I have been breaking out like Im 13 as soon as I get rid of pimples new ones come and then it hits me.  Ever since I started using MAC my skin has been awful, I have considered this in the past.  Always on YouTube I hear how MAC would break people out but I put in the back of my mind because no way makeup that cost $30 an item would mess up my face.... so for months I continue to use it.  Finally with nothing to lose I decided to lay off, its been a week, my break-outs are gone.  Whaaaa what am I going to do with these MAC face products now...... what am I saying? who cares no more acne!

Secondly, I just recently got an eyelash curler, from e.l.f for $1 and I love it! I cannot believe I never used one sooner

OMG!

1. Things that drive me nuts... Its obvious that I need xanax because everyone of my posts are of me bitching. I also need a meal but some things that annoy me to no end.  My room mate is ALWAYS in the kitchen like literally have not been home from work for 10 seconds and I hear plates clinking and then shes eating chips and fixing an ice cream sundae then at about 10pm she will be cutting on that glass cutting board. She has eaten more times today than I have all month.

2. Right now Im taking a Class and every hour we get a break, well I just want to sit and chill and enjoy the silence of not hearing anyone talk for those ten minutes but lo and behold the guy next to me (which he should not even be speaking to me anyway he is an officer I am not) starts chumming it up.  like jesus christ dude just chill out and relax if you want to talk so bad go talk to the damn teacher.  Then again Im a quiet ass chick I probably speak 100 words per day, most are along the lines of "are you fucking kidding me"  "OMG please stop talking" "drive faster" "hurry the fuck up"

3. Nail biters their are two people in my class that bite their nails the whole day.  I want to knock their teeth out.


4. KEVIN like seriously I know Im a big pain in the ass and I want everything my way and I have an attitude and Im a bitch and I really try with this dude and I cant tell whos the asshole me or him or who is the bigger asshole I should say....

LOL like he is not my type and I would say he is not attractive to most but Im so in love with this big black gorilla its pathetic.  He's tall and buff and black his hair is beautiful and is eyelashes are so long and curly and he can pick me up and OMG what is wrong with me.  Please marry me Kevin.

why does it take me so long to get ready seriously if I allow myself I could take 5 hours I fuck off so bad.  Like everything has to be perfect it takes me 30 mins alone just to shower Im always late I know it takes me 30 minutes to get to work so why am I pissed off when I leave and cant make it in ten.  I wish I could get it together.  

Tan / Pale

I used to be a tanaholic like that is what I would do on my free time is work on my tan.  In the summer I would waste my days away lying by the pool or beach floating on my raft reading my book seeing how dark I could get.  It was fun and enjoyable, I met a lot of people and I was a golden godess.  In the winter I was in the tanning bed, getting spray tans, mystic tan, tan in a can.  Then all of a sudden it became a big goddamn hassle, I wanted to go out on the weekend but was out of spray tan, then I had to run all over town to buy some hurry home exfoliate and get it on with enough time to develop.  Then it would stink and stain and OMG the smell I couldnt tolerate the smell even days later I could smell it on myself and want to gagg.... I have this thing about smells and it drives me nuts.  So finally i said "FORGET THIS SHIT", havn't tanned since.

Now I'm on the opposite end of the spectrum, Im so pale I have the hardest time finding foundation that matches my fair skin.  Sometimes when I walk from my car into work I wish I had an umbrella cause I don't want any color on my pretty skin.  At the same time it is a kill joy I can't go to the beach or pool Im an albino that can only come out when the bats do.

Tan

Ivory

Tornado of thoughts

Ideally I would want a separate Blog for Beauty, Fashion, Things, Thoughts, Love the list goes on...... So like my thoughts this Blog will be all over the place.  Read only by strangers

I dont even know where to start most of this isn't important things I think heavily about should matter  not at all to me.  Since July 4, 2011 4 months of being completely obsessively consumed with Kevin.  Kevin is by far not a prince he is a toad, Im a beautiful princess.  Kevin pays me no mind and it makes me think of him 1000000X more I go from envisioning myself killing him to marrying him on the islands.  I get ten marriage proposals a day but usually what I want I can never have.


I loved my Precious Kitty I couldn't have that either... he passed away.

I have a love hair relationship with my hair I pretty much always hate it.  It used to be so long down to my waist in 2006 it would tickle my back, get stuck under my arm pit, wrap itself around my neck, So I chopped it all off

and then I wanted back long so I spent $1700 for hair extensions

and then I cover that up with a wig.......

I tell my stylist I want it blonder, she says "I can't make it any more blonde", I say "then make it white"
and I dont like it add some lowlights, add a glaze, I want extensions, I want it pink. Buy some wigs lah!